Boys do cry

Ofcourse they do. I'm a new mom, so keep in mind that this is all new to me. Well most of it. My 16 month old was very cranky the whole weekend. I can't lie and say that I've been completely patient with him. There were times where he wasn't listening at all. I had take a firm tone with him a few times.  I forget that he's a little person and has his own feelings and emotions to process. 

 I take public transportation and his outburst in public have been extra challenging for me. I don't want to yell at him. I limited my time outside with him this weekend.  Usually we'll go out for long periods of time.  Not only was my anxiety off the charts but this whole weekend I was plagued by worry about how I could be failing him. 

Just being transparent right now. I know my husband and I are doing the best we can. We have support with moms and friends. But if you have anxiety, you know how the mind can bend the truth and make minut things feel so overwhelming.  

 

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As you can see...  this is part of the meltdown. It kills me right now that he can't communicate whatever it is that bothers him. It's usually a guessing game. 

The best part is being able to make him smile and laugh. As challenging as it is sometimes, I wouldn't change not being a mom. I would as he gets older encourage him to learn about his emotions. Learn how to express them in a healthy manner. But those are just my ideals atm. For now we just take one day at a time. 

 

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Here is the smile that we all love so much. Seriously, he has the best smile.